“忙”

“忙”已经是城市人的文明病了

因为“忙”，我们开始忘记了家人。。。因为“忙”，我们开始忘记了以前一起玩得很开心的旧同学。。。因为“忙”，我们开始忘记了自己的健康。。。因为“忙”，我们开始把它当成了逃避的借口。。。

我，就是其中一个。。。

父母问：“你真的有那么忙吗？”， 我说：“我真的很忙”朋友问：“你真得很忙吗？”， 我说：“对不起，我真得很忙”

“忙”已经成了我们的习惯。。。。

有时我也会问自己，我真的有那么“忙”吗？

其他人都说我是为了钱而让自己变得那么“忙”。。。有些则以为我为钱疯了。。。

我也就只能无言以对。。。因该说，没有时间澄清。。。

有时候，因为太“忙”，我开始迷失了。。“忙”得有点混乱。。。“忙”得有点空虚。。。

每天回到家，都已经是凌晨了。。。躺在床上望着天花板呆呆的想着不知道什么东西的东西。。一秒一秒的过。。。这几个月来，我“忙”得开心过，也“忙”得伤心过。。。尝试过开心得睡不着，也尝试过心理悲疼得无法入眠。。。因为见过太多的东西了。。。太多太多的情绪也因为“忙”而被压抑得难以呼吸。也许是从中学开始吧，我被逼的需要外钢里揉。。。心里再脆弱也不能让其他人看到自己脆弱的一面。。。这也是唯一能在商场上生存的首要条件。。。

好累。。。真的。。。

我，需要一个可以让我放下所有情绪的空间。。。有这个地方吗？

-白日梦-

以前，小学老师总是喜欢骂我道“黄宗达！现在什么时候了还在发白日梦~！”
那时候的我也不知道为何不能发白日梦，只知道不能在老师面前发白日梦。。。
可能马来西亚的教育里不能容纳他们的学生发梦吧。。。
也因为这样，我开始渐渐忘了发白日梦到底是什么一回事。。。

可是，最近我仿佛感觉到白日梦渐渐的回来了。。。
一个已经与我失散多年的感觉好像回来了。。。
有人说人生如梦。。。
而我倒觉得人生如一场白日梦。。

为何？
因为。。。
我。。。。

以为能与一斑相好的朋友开开心心的相处，哪里知道朋友突然跟我说“我们要再见了”。。
以为开始“爱”上了，哪里知道是我想太多了。。
以为就来得到了某些东西，哪里知道“它”被他人拿去了。。
以为。。。以为。。。

人生就是那么多的以为。。。
“它”们来得快，去的也快。。。
就如白日梦。
你不知道“它们”何时会来，何时会离开。。。
一切就得等待上天的安排，安排白日梦的到来。。。
当一切都过去了的时候，你就如发了一场白日梦。。。
白日梦一过，我们就不得不回到现实的生活里。。。。等待下一场白日梦的到来~


我们还是多多珍惜我们的白日梦吧~
因为。。。
“跑”了的白日梦永远都很难再回来。。。
就如你很难再发回过去了的白日梦一样。。。

我的白色圣诞：-My White Christmas

~白色圣诞~

如果我是SanTa ClauS，我会让全世界都在12月份下起蒙蒙的白雪，让全世界的小朋友们都能享受到白色圣诞。。。

如果我是一名ElF,我会尽量做很多很多的玩具让SanTa先生把它们带到世界的每个角落，让每一位的小朋友都有一个快乐的圣诞节。。。

如果我是一只ReInDeeR,我会赶快穿上我的“金铃”与我的同伴们准备为SanTa主人出发到世界的每一间屋子的屋顶上，让每一位小孩都能听到“希望-铃声”。。。

如果。。。如果。。。
圣诞节就是那么的神奇。。。
它有自己独特的神奇力量。。。总是能让没有希望的孩子们充满了希望。。。
但是，这神奇的力量总是会随着年龄的增长而消退。。。
从有希望，变得没有希望。。。
从单纯，变得有心机。。。
从可爱，变得险恶。。。
这就是现在的社会。。。

不懂何时，我开始恋上了圣诞节。。。
我虽然不是基督教徒，但我很喜欢圣诞节。

一位很可爱的朋友与我在雅虎谈天，内容如下：

twsim17 zhiwei: what is it so special... u also not christian
Nicholas Ng : y everyone also said that to me wor
Nicholas Ng : i like the feeling la
twsim17 zhiwei: how come never see u say "thaipusam is near" or "wesak is near" or "awal
muharram is near"?

谈到这里，我不禁的笑了出来。。
我这位朋友真的很可爱，难怪我们都很喜欢他。。。

虽然我在22年的圣诞节里没有收到任何的礼物，但这并没有阻止我对它的感情。。。
因为我知道圣诞节并不是以礼物来定夺它的价值。。。
礼物也只不过是圣诞节的点缀品，用来为圣诞节多带几分气息。。。
基督教徒视圣诞节为JeSus的诞生。。。
非基督教徒的年轻伙子视圣诞节为吃喝玩乐的日子。。。
非基督教徒的成年人则视圣诞节为一个普通的假期。。。
而我，视它为一个可以令心情，思想平复的一天。。。一个总是能让我回到童年的日子。。。

以前，我总是喜欢看圣诞节卡通。。。
MicKey MouSe and Christmas
Donald Duck and ChipMunks on Christmas EvE
之类的。。。

好怀念那些日子。。。
我想，那些就是在我童年里给了我很多很多的希望。。。

为了能寻找回当年的童年，我总是在12月份里到不同的逛逛的地方欣赏不同类型的圣诞摆设。。。
惊喜总是在等待我们的。。。。
若得空，不妨到“谷中城”走走。。。它总是能带来许多的惊喜。。。。
“White Christmas" 也就是他们今年的圣诞节摆设的主题。。。

若要问我圣诞节是什么？

那我会说

它是：~希望
它是：~童年
它是：~惊喜
它是：~大爱
它是：~单纯
它是：~小孩与大人的梦幻日子

“谷中城”的 WhiteChristmas 只会摆到12月26日而已。。。过后就要开始准备华人的农历新年的主题。。。要看可要快哦。。。

家人系列 - 以父之名

认识他时，他才只不过是

一名年轻有为的普通男子。。。
一名自以为是的伙子。。。
一名活力十足的大男人。。。
一名不讨好家人喜欢的儿子。。。
一名喜欢与家人斗气的弟弟。。。
-等-

他是谁？他就是我“爸爸”。
认识他将近二十三年了。。。
可幸的是，他给了我永远无法偿还的“恩”

-小时候-

我总是喜欢欺骗“爸爸”，或在“爸爸”面前演戏。。。为了就是想要得到一些东西。
虽然他每次都知道我是在演戏，但他都会尽量满足我的欲望。
久而久之，我就习惯性的演好我的戏，目的就只有一个。。。要爸爸满足我的欲望。
每次他都会。。。。

我：“爸~ 我要那个那个。。。。如果我没有那个。。。我就不能什么什么的。。”
爸爸：“好了啦。。。不用再做戏了。。。我懂了啦 ~”
（好体贴的爸爸哦~）

-成长中-

爸爸与他的家人（姑姑，姑丈等）不和已经是铁一般的事实了。
相信每一位家里的成员都知道了。。。
可能家族庞大，人际关系就自然而然的复杂了。。
爸爸往往在最不恰当的时候与他的“敌人”大开骂战。。。
搞得家里的人总是昏昏的。。。
母亲总是很为难的尽量与他的“敌人”有说有笑，为的只是不想要婆婆和公公见到家里的事闹得不开心的。
而我与年小的弟弟也尽量扮得若无其事的弥着嘴笑。。。
那时的我，总觉得爸爸很不得体也没有以爸爸为傲。心里总是问到“为何他总不能好好地与他的兄妹们沟通呢？”
不了解。。。

-长大后-

我开始明白了许多以前的疑问。。。
对爸爸的误会就再也没有了。。
他现在是我的骄傲也。。
最近，我开始留意到爸爸的白发几乎越来越白了。。
他的皱纹也好像比较明显了。。
可能以前没有好好的望爸爸一眼。。。
但这一望，不但见证了岁月的吹残，而且也见证了我这名不孝子的“孝道”。
为何我以前没有好好的望爸爸一眼呢？
难道我要等到没有机会时才想想他的样子么？
想到这里，心里总有一种说不出的悲痛。
*痛*

我不懂什么是最好的报答方式，但我可以肯定的是，父母恩惠难报完。
既然他们是我们今身的父母，喜欢或否，我们都因好好报答他们的养育之恩。
别等到没有了机会才懊悔当初的所作所为。

读到这里。。。我想问问。。。
你有好好的望过你的爸爸么？

Chronicles of NarniC~ Special Edition

After years of battle, The boy won the battle.

Evil Rat had gone, The Dirty Queen loses the battle and the dark forces had fallen.

The boy reunite the CLEAN forces and create his own kingdom in PUCHONG JAYA and he live happily ever after (Like Sleeping Beauty, Like Cinderella etc).

-THE END-

Special Thanks to:~

MIMI (my new PET) - The Evil Rat

UNCLE - My dearest uncle

XWEING - The Clumsy White Wizard

HORNY FROG - The Singing Twin Brother(1)

CUTIE FROG - The Singing Twin Brother(2)

DIRTY QUEEN - The Dirty Bee

RUBBISH LALAT- The Cemburu CARLN

GENERAL MOSQUITO - The Furious Kenly

SINGING FARIES - 8 Little Fish

OLD TREE - The Wise HUIMIAN
DEADLIEST VIRUS - The Flu

The above is based on true story.

The Moral of the story is:~

*Never Leave Your Cupboard Open and Expect for the Unexpected*

Chronicles of NarniC~ The Boy and The FLU Spell

The Dirty Queen was so furious when she know her army failed her.
"Argghhhh......!!!"The Queen shouted.
"I think you need HIM to help you...my queen" CARYN the FLY said.
"yess....yess.....HE is powerful....go to HIM and ask HIM to help...go" The queen said.
CARYN the fly also known as the LALAT flew out to find HIM.
"This time, I must make the boy suffer ~!!" The queen said.
The Evil Rat was there. She knew the boy will loose in this war with HIS help.
"No Man can escape from HIM......hundred of thousands of MAN died under HIS attack " The evil rat thought.

On the other hand, the boy joined the HUIMIAN the tree into the TREE KINGDOM.
"You will be safe here" The Tree said.
"Don't try to go out from this area, it is not safe" The tree continued.
The boy said "Thank you very much"
"Let me introduce our KINGDOM's Prime Minister to you."The tree then took the boy into a HUT not far from where they are.
A small deer came out from the hut and welcome the boy.
"I am the Prime Minister here. My name is Sang Kancil" the small deer introduced.
"Thank you for your hospitality"The boy said.
"Make yourself at home and enjoy the PEACE here"The small dear said.

The boy then walk around in the TREE KINGDOM.
"Come here........here.....here...." a soft voice said.
The boy followed the voice.
He left the TREE KINGDOM back into the UNKNOWN.

"Ha ha ha....you are under my spell" an Virus suddenly appeared from nowhere.
"Who are you?" The boy asked.
"I am the well known sick -THE FLU" The Virus answered.
"waa....."The boy screamed.
"The Queen asked me to kill you......"The Virus continued
"Please.....leave me alone...."The boy cried.
"Cannot!!!....U must die~!!" The Virus shouted furiously
"ba ba mm.....mm ba mm.....mm mm ba......"The Virus started to cast His spell.
His Deadliest spell where no man had ever defeated it. THE FLU SPELL.
The boy started to feel dizzy.
His eyes is getting red, His nose started to run....
Then......
"A...Aa...Aaa.....CHIU~~!!!!" The boy sneezed.
"A Chiu...A Chiu....."The boy sneezed repeatedly
"Ha ha ha....you are under my Deadliest Spell....you will be dead......see you ....HELL BOY" The Virus laughed and disappeared back into the UNKNOWN.
"A...a....Chiu...~" The boy sneezed again.
"I am defeated......." The boy cried.
After a few minutes, the boy fainted.
The FLU SPELL is too strong for a young boy.

-To Be Continue -

Chronicles of NarniC~ The Queen and The Dark Forces

It's been a while the Evil Rat had gone into the UNKNOWN.
Everyone started to forget about the battle between the boy and the Evil Rat, except The Boy himself.
He started to walk into the UNKNOWN to look for the Evil Rat.
The boy feel cold when he reached the middle of the UNKNOWN.
"Is it going to rain?" He asked himself.
"YessSs YesSss" a mysterious voice answered him.
The boy was shocked and shouted "Who are you?"
"I am the HORNY frog who live here" the voice answered.
"Show yourself ! " He shouted again
"I am just beside you~" the voice answered.
The boy quickly turned around and saw two tiny little green frog sitting calmly on a big stone, staring at the boy.
"This is my little brother CUTIE" The Bigger Frog introduced.
"Err......nice to meet you" The boy said.
"Why are you here?" The Bigger Frog (Horny) asked the boy
"I am looking for the Evil Rat, she is wearing a Christmas Hat and a Bra" The boy answered.
"Hmmm......" The Smaller Frog(Cutie) said.
"Maybe you can ask the gods in the pond. They know many things." The Bigger Frog told the boy.
"Where is the pond??!!" The Boy questioned eagerly to know the answer.
"Just behind here"The Bigger frog pointed to the North
"Thank u~"The boy thanked the TWINS and quickly headed to the POND (Aquarium)

When he reached the pond, he sees nothing.
He tried to look around and hope to see the GODS (8 little fish in my aquarium) that were mentioned by the TWINS.
While he is still catching his breath, he heard someone / a group of people singing...
"la....la la la.....la ....la la la.....Try to look for the KITCHY place......la la la la......you ...la la la....might see what.....lalala you are looking ....lalala ...for....lalala"
The boy quickly thanked the GODS and rushed to the KITCHY (Kitchen).
He searched carefully and to his surprise, he saw some marks......THE DEATH EATER MARK!(Bite marks - by some small animals)
"Oh my god....."The boy thought.
He quickly hide all his food into hidden places to avoid the Evil Rat to cast it's spell on it.


On the other hand, The Evil Rat reached HER kingdom - The Dirty Queen BEEBEE.
"Queen BEEBEE........We must join our forces to fight the BOY" The Evil Rat said.
"He started to swallow your kingdom (by making the room clean) bits by bits" The Rat continued.
"What??!!!" The Dirty Queen exclaimed.
"Yes my Queen, What the Evil Rat said is true" said CARYN the FLY and flew out from a pile of RUBBISH as she finished her words.
"hmm.....I think we must Attack Back before MY KINGDOM is gone......"The Queen said.
"So what will you do my queen?" The Fly questioned the queen.
"WAR ~!!! What I need is a WAR" The queen shouted angrily.
"Call the GENERAL ~!" The queen shouted again
"The General ~" The Fly shouted
A big mosquito walked into the Hall.
"Yes my queen, what can I do for you?" The mosquito asked.
"I need you to bring an army to attack the Boy." The queen said.
"The boy?" The mosquito questioned.
"Yes the boy, You are my trusted and most capable army in my country,KENLY. I need you to defeat him" the queen said.
"I will not fail you, my queen" KENLY the big mosquito then marched back to where he came from.
The Evil Rat Smiled wickedly.
"Now, the dark forces shall rise ........" The queen laughed wickedly

The boy was too tired hiding his food. He fell asleep on a slumbering rock (SOFA).
Suddenly, he heard something unusual.
"ngeeee......ngeeee.....ngeeee....."
KENLY the mosquito and his army are all over the place.
"ATTACK the boy~!" The big mosquito shouted.
Thousands of mosquitoes started to attack the boy.
"Waaaaaa......." The Boy shouted.
"Kill...Kill....Kill....." The army of mosquitoes shouted
The boy is helpless.
"Use the holy water~!" suddenly a tree behind him shouted.
Without any hesitation, the boy took out the HOLY water (H2O Racun serangga - sponsored by The Elephant Brand) and spray towards the army.
"arrr.....arr...." Bad mosquitoes shouted
One by one, the army started to die.
"He have the HOLY water......RUN~!" KENLY the big mosquito shouted.
The army started to flee for their lifes.
"Thank you.....you ar....?" The boy asked
"HUIMIAN the old tree" the Tree replied.

- to be continue -